it feels so good to be back!! I haven't posted in a while...just been busy I guess..but I'm still in my same situation.  I feel huugeee today because of a binge yesterday :-\ so gross.  I was wondering if any of you have the same problem.. the morning after a binge my muscles/skin feel so sore and uncomfortable and like weird...and my hands and feet will get really hot (which is weird because they're usually cold)...The next day it usually goes back to normal... anyone have the same problem? what do you do about it?  I tried taking like advil and stuff but it doesnt really reduce the soreness to well...

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great day and just remember to think positive!! :)

Haven't posted in a while and I miss it!!

i was doing so good but still having random binges :\ .. I NEED A JOB! It's halfway into summer and I STILL haven't gotten hired anywhere, it puts me in such a bad mood..I feel worthless..And I need to have some structure in my summer so I can avoid eating too

Got down to 98 pounds this morning...but then binged today

Fuck.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a lot better...

I need some lovinn  and support from you guys<3

Oh and a side note..this is like my FAVORITE guilty pleasure -->  www.theskinnywebsite.com   -- It has like everything on celebrity weight loss, gain, diets..you name it!! And it's updated like everyday..great thinspo

Good night llovvvessss

Current Mood: cranky

Day 1 of restriction and I'm proud of myself :) It was nothing tooooo drastic..well, compared to the amount of calories in my binges it was...but I ate a cup of fiber one for breakfast..celery for lunch, and a bowl of cereal with a little bit of milk for dinner. And I also had a light laxative tea to help me cleanse a little better since I'm constipated from all of the junk food hehe..

I also got my period today :( Kind of a relief because I knew I was getting it but I also hate that I have it because it reminds me that I have weight to lose.  It was so comforting not getting it when I was thinner.  It's gonna be extra hard squelching my cravings this week becasue of my period too but im dertermined to beat it!!!

<3 you

Hopefully REstarting on a Monday will boost my confidence a little, being that it's a fresh start and all..
I can't stop binging.  I need support.

I need to be thin again.

I feel absolutely disgusting.

I miss my bones

Current Mood: crushed

I did great today
under 400 cals! + an hour of running

...and then what do I do to fuck it all up?
fucking binge.  Binge like a fat pig.  lean cuisine pizza, cookies, turkey, cheese, cereal, ice cream.

I hate myself.

Current Mood: disappointed

In some ways I wish I could go back to my freshman year of college...
I would spend about and hour in the gym per day and take in no more than 250 calories. "I'll keep this up", I told myself, as I moved home for the summer, "Maybe just my dinner will be different since my parents will be there." But I was wrong. I gained back all of the weight that I had lost. Instead of a beautiful 90 pounds, with sexy bones protuding, I am a fat cow and back at 100, maybe even more. I NEED TO GET BACK ON TRACK. I can't have days where I eat 200 calories, and then the next day eat like 5000. This is absurd. I want my old body back.

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